I use to be all over the place trying to care for my growing family. It took a while, but I had to learn to take care of myself. I spent most of my time helping others to be well, but I decided this year to take care of myself. Self-care mentally, physically and spiritually to enhance my emotional well-being.
I find that I feel better when I can care for my family and enjoy the time that I have with them. I learned early in life what it felt like to lose so many family members. Within a five year period I lost my mom, grandma, uncles, aunts, great-grandma. That was years ago, but sometimes I can't shake the feeling of feeling alone.
It's worst when I go through hardtimes, whether financial or not. Sometimes I wish that I could change the outcome. I don't have much emotional support, but I look at my children and I want to be better and feel better. So that is my goal, to be a well mom. I know that my children will need me more as they get older so I want to be in position. I hope I am able to be here for them. My mom and grandma where gone before I got married. I wish that they could have been here, desperately. Since I cannot change the past, I want to be as well as I possibly can for my children and grand-daughter. Yes, I am a grandma too.
I always think of enjoying time with my family. For some reason, now it feels so important to spend memorable times with them. My future blogs will highlight some of our upcoming activities {I convinced everyone to participate in stuff that I put together}. I've decided as follows:
Diary & Baking Day -- With my youngest daughter who wants to learn how to cook. We are also planning to go to the bookstore to buy a diary or journal to write our thoughts and feelings in. We plan to have Baking Day with Dad, so that should be fun.